How would you know if you’re already in love?

okay, this may be the cheesiest post ever. so don’t bother reading it if you’re not the mushy type of person coz you’ll surely hate me after. (okay,ill shut up)

ohwell, I haven’t felt that for a really really looonggg time so I’ve been asking this question for the past few days already. How would you reallly know if you’re in love? how would you know the difference of infatuation to actually being really in love? 

I thought I know the answer, but I guess I’m as clueless as I was before. I can’t even identify my own feelings. All I know is that I feel very happy everytime I think about that someone, I keep on repeating our conversations in my head and just the thought of him, makes me smile.

To be honest, I am not really a “romantic, let’s talk about love all the time” type of person. Actually, I really hate it when some people always talks about love as if it’s the only thing that matters to them. Don’t get me wrong, I know “Love is the greatest gift of all” LOL haha but they’re talking about the romantic kind of love only, sooo you know what I mean ..You can say that I was only bitter that time, but it really goes beyond my bitter stage, well, TBH, I really enjoyed being single, I did all the things that I was not able to do when I was still in a relationship. I never really thought about love that much anymore, I became too focused on my studies, business,future,friends,etc etc :) 

Lately though, I started thinking about it more often, I guess the INTIMACY VS. ISOLATION STAGE  is getting into me :D then I MET SOMEONE. Someone who resembles my very own ideal man. I know  his vices, but it doesn’t seem to matter at all. I’ve never admired a guy (otherthanmydad) as much as I admire him, he’s so influential and I could see how much he has touched the lives of other people, I am really glad that I was able to talk to him and get to know each other better.:) I smile everytime I think about him, everytime I talk to him, everytime he asks me questions about my life or what Ive been going through lately. I just love being around him and talking to him. At the same time, I think I’ve found a life long friend in him. I’ve been looking for someone whom I could talk to about almost anything. I want that kind of friend, but I don’t want to be just friends with him . I like him, but I can’t do anything about it. We were not in constant communication, and it sucks big time, but I learned to accept it. 

at the end of the day, I therefore conclude that I am NOT YET in love. it’s only an admiration, a strong admiration probably, but not really in love. I don’t wanna rush into things, now that I’ve seen that this may have a chance in the future, I wanna take it one step at a time. and I do hope that everything will be better tomorrow -_-

:)))